I have fallen again
just like before
so now I must get up
and struggle some more

I have this pain
reborn again
it dwells inside
always within

wrought by steel
and fire and cold
to be the center-stone
of my life

The joy that flows
through my body
is inexhaustable

I feel this joy
flow through my veins
to my head

It hits me broadside
like a crack to the skull
that leaves you stunned

I don't know what to do
with the new found joy
or were to go

I guess i will end
with this in mind
bless the Lord in his mercy

I wrote this for Lydia Poe. For those of you that don't know her, she is a sweet charming girl that is wonderful. I love knowing her and talking to her.

To a Friend (She is)

Oh, where to start
I ask myself
about this person
who has a big heart

She is so sweet
kind and fair
loves everyone
with deep true care

She is there
when you need her
always ready too
lend you her ear

She is always joyful
always gay
happy and fun
ready to play

She is the best of friends
anyone knows that
I am glad to have met her
through a quick chat

Why must I go through this mystery again
the deep aching pain
of not being able
to be loved

I want to know why
I can't conqueor my own heart
I feel so dark inside
because I am lost

I am lost at what to do
what to say
what to make her
say yes

I just don't know
I don't know anymore
what I should do

I guess I will push on

I raise my hopes
and like pride
they falleth
hard and flat

So now I think
is it better to
have love and lost
than to have loved

It makes one cold
hard and hollow
so that a phase like this
passes with a fleeting glance

I will remember it
and hate it every time

Dark and deary
my days have been
but now my soul
is filled within

Of joy and peace
a collective rest
these two now sit
without any zest

Quiet and calm
I sit and think
Quiet and calm
I wish to be

So leave me here
To ly and think
Till the end of days
when we can not weep

Love and joy
thats what they want me to write
but I have not strength or feeling
to write these

I lived with them
but they left me
at a time when
I needed them

I was left with sorrow
sadness, no joy
brings numbness to me
and flows through my viens

Now as warmth comes back
I remember the past
and set my mind
away from everything

For to be burned
is to become callous
and hard as stone
and I wish that not for me

So I let the warmth flow
let the fire grow
ready to be burned again
only for some joy

You smiled when we came
made joy come around
helped fill our buckets with sand
and play in the sun

Then it came
had no mercy for you
we pray for you know
for thats all we could do

The long life is lived
the time has gone
I will weep for you tomorrow
and end this song

They sang us a song
they gave us a toast
we danced on the floor
we ate us a roast

Now throught the door lets go
I'll start life her with you
No longer a show
for everyone knows

We walk hand in hand
down in the dry sand
smiling as we walk
only wanting to talk

And now I am with you
I'll love to the end
nothing can shake that
forever in hand

See how they come
hear how they run

Leaving the dark night
coming to the light

Left for the next play
coming from past day

Wanting the new joy
shedding the old toy

Now they have come
Feeling not numb

Changing the old way
Hope for the coming day

From out of the darkness
springs a small light
something has changed
or seems to be revealed

A new dawn has come
for him that has wished it
he suffers no more
yet calous has he become

To be scarred or scratched
who is to tell
there is but one
who knows so well

Different and strange
he seems to be
yet underneath it all
he's been the same

Seeking a new life
trying the different route